Dream

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Please, Please, respect me and all the hard work that I put into this and credit me if you use this, which to tell you the truth, I would rather you not use it at all....

HELLO

So.... I know I haven't been on here in awhile but whatever. This is for when I feel like writing anyway. So... I turn 17 in a few days... ok more like 2 days but whatever, it's not like I've been counting them....

I've decided that since I haven't worked on my Life After blog in awhile, I'm going to turn it into a place for me to put my digital art on there. Yes, I have been working on my digital art recently. It has gotten so much better too! So, I hope you enjoy it! Or maybe I should put it on here.... I think I will... but first I have to put my name on them....

*These pictures WERE NOT done by me. I got them off of a website called DeviantArt.com. These pictures are by very talented people that go by the name of Ironshod and ShadowUmbre. You can find their work on said website.*

Wounds

And even though you hurt me,

Here I am once again.

I've told you so many times baby,

I'll always be your friend.

And if only you could've seen,

The wounds I'd try to mend,

You wouldn't have set me free,

You wouldn't have left me to defend.

And I pray that we'll never,

Again have to go through this strife.

And that you will never again sever,

My heart with your cruel knife.

And even though we're back together,

And I once again feel alive,
These wounds will last forever,
And teach me to survive.

So... yea. Julian and I got back together. I'm no longer a mess. :) So that's a good thing. I think I'm going to try to post some of my new poetry on here from now on...

Photos

So here's a couple of before and after photos that I worked on in Photoshop... tell me what you think.

My English Teacher Ate It

Wow, so I gave my english teacher my flashdrive today. It had all of my photos and writings on it. (minus valdor my first story blog). I hope she likes it. Shes one of the most inspiring teachers out there. Like that teacher from freedom writers.

But her husband is the art teacher, and he liked some of my photos from last year. :) he said on the first day of school this year that i take amazing pictures. And it's really cool because he doesnt remember my name, but he remembers me by the pictures i take. Honestly, id rather that be it than my name.

I hope they like all of it, she read the first chapter or Life After and said...>ahem<>

but i feel a lot better now. i got to work in photoshop today!!! yea i got to edit pictures and all. i took this picture:

and cleared up their faces. theres nothing wrong with them the way they look. i acatually made their eyes blue the first time i edited it.

buuuut i dont have the finished draft of it, so i cant show yall until tomorrow.... cause my teacher has my flashdrive...

anyways have a good day

Just Pretend That Nothing Ever Happened

Ok, so right now I've finally finished chapter four, and I will post the first part of it tomorrow. Ya'll might have to wait longer for chapters very soon. Because it takes me a few days to write, type and proofread, then retype the chapter. So I'm sorry for the delay. I will try my best to keep them coming though.

Honestly, I'm liking this one better than my first one Valdor. I just wish I knew what to call it. Maybe it would help with advertising or something, but I really wish I had a name for it.

Another song that I've been serisouly stuck on...

So, I went to church last night and saw one of my friends Christina.

She's the one on the left. I really missed her. Serisouly, I haven't seen her in like, a month. And you have to understand, I had a lot, and I mean A LOT of things to tell her. I can't really talk about it on here, because it's kinda... incriminating. ;) And all of church I ended up talking to her and getting a lot off of my mind, and out in the open. So I ended up (accidently) ignoring Julian (boyfriend of...9 months?) the entire time we were there.

Now you've got to understand, he's the only person I talk to really. I can't call Jessica, cause we think her parents record her conversations... and she's going out with this dude, which requires for her to tell him, and then he'll tell everyone else. (again INCRIMINATING) That's her down there.

And I can't really call Brianna because she's very religous and I just can't talk about certain things to her. That's her down there.

And you can't really get ahold of Christina but through text messages and half of the time, she's at work or pratice. And people can see your texts on the internet. (There's some kind of tracking thingy on the company's website.) So the only person I've talked to is a guy, and he won't listen to the "girl" things that I need to talk about. So the only person I've really sat down and talked with ALL SUMMER is Julian. Thats him. Yea... I didn't take that picture. Christina did. That's why it sucks. :)

So did I do something bad? Cause if I didn't get it out, then he would have to hear "girl" things. And some of the things were about him. *ahem.*

You Can Only Move As Fast As Who's In Front Of You

I kinda accidently stiffed yall on Untitled's second chapter today (you'll see what I mean) so I'm going to post Chapter three part one on there. but just to let you all know, I'm only on chapter 3. I've been...busy. You see, my friend let me borrow Final Fantasy X-2 so I've been playing it a lot. I don't get to play viedo games that much, so I'm enjoying this one. :)

So, I've been wondering, if you tried to put both your stories on one blog, how would you make the seperate links for it? Like have one section for one blog, and another for the other one? I'm not sure how to do any of this. I don't even know how to do layouts on here! I got them off of this website thats really cool.

So, heres another song I've been listening to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WtBMF0BqDrU&feature=related

I think I've become addicted to Juno's soundtrack. I don't know why but I love songs like this, but I don't know what genre that they are called, and not many bands sing like this. So, I have no idea where to get them, or what bands sing like this.

Ok, so here's a few snow pictures that I took the one day out of the entire year that it did snow. We don't get weather like that much, so I wanted to remember it.

More Photos and A Song

ok, so I've been listening to a song today. You know those kinda old-timey ones that make you feel all floaty inside? The ones that make you wish that everything was simpler? Well I was listening to this song called "All I Want Is You" it's really good. The link is here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20PQBtyfNZY&feature=rec-fresh

It's off of Juno, though. So I'm not sure if you would like it.

I've decided to do a whole post over some of my favorite black and whites on here. I like those the best. There may be a couple of repeats in here, beause it's all of my favorite ones.

I really didn't take this picture, but my friend had seen some of my edited pictures and asked me to work on it for her. So... I made the eyes blue, and cleared up their faces in Photoshop, but I couldn't save the picture at the end of the school year, so I lost the one with the clear faces, and this is the only one left.



Another one that I edited in Photoshop. In that one I made the eyes red, but I can't upload it on here. The file is too big.

So this is Jessica and Paul. I also edited this one in Photoshop to where his eyes were blue and her eyes were brown. Yet again, I cant upload it.

Some pine trees. I didn't mess with this one at all. It turned out perfect.

So sometimes at the beginning of school I would give my camera to Jeromey and he would get pictures of people. Then I would edit them to make them look cool. I like this one. Espically they way the leaves turned out real glossy.

Here's a contrast. This is the original picture. I like it a lot better. That way ^.

Photos and News

Ok, so I haven't posted in awhile. I know. But it's just that I've been working on this new story. Yea. I gave up on the Valdor one until I can figure out how its gonna end. I followed the advice of someone, and figured out the ending before I wrote it. It's about a futuristic society, where nuclear bombs killed almost everything. I haven't thought of a name for it yet. but here's the link:

http://canabalisticmonkey0.blogspot.com/

I realized that I haven't posted a few photos recently, so here's a few:

This is one of my earlier photos. I like it though.

So another first for me. I like it a lot though.

And this is my friend Samantha. This was one of those pictures that you just took and the person didn't know you were doing it. I love these! :)

Ok, now this one was funny. She had to stay like that for 5 minutes while we tried to revive my camera to take the picture.

I don't really have much to say about this one, but it turned out great. I didn't even have to work on it or anything.

Some of My Work

Ok, so this is Anabell. She was a stray that wandered up into our yard, starving. We fed her for awhile, then we went on vacation, and the owner happened to see her at our house while we were gone, and took her. *sniff* I miss that dog. She was the first pit bull I liked.

Why is there a picture of clovers on a wall you ask? Because, I loved the way that they got there. I have never seen a clover patch climb UP A WALL. Ok, it might not be that uncommon, but I have never seen this before.








Our family went on vacation one year and time and the park was so beautiful. I got tons of pictures that time that we went. This is one of my favorite pictures that I've ever taken.













This is Jeromey. We used to be pretty good friends. I just wish that I had photoshop so I could work on his face...:)













This is Kelly, she's a fun emo kid that I know back in school.

Photo

I am in love with this picture. It was taken at a park in...well I don't remember, but it is one of my first good pictures.

I've always like to photograph things. It has spurred from my inability to remember places that I go and people that I see. Even the people that I see every day fade away from my memory. I can not imagine what my parents look like if I closed my eyes, and I see them every day. No one, not my boyfriend, not my friends, not anyone. So, I started taking pictures of them, and now when I close my eyes, I can imagine them, but it's only from the picture that I took.

Very sad.