*These pictures WERE NOT done by me. I got them off of a website called DeviantArt.com. These pictures are by very talented people that go by the name of Ironshod and ShadowUmbre. You can find their work on said website.*

Wounds

And even though you hurt me,

Here I am once again.

I've told you so many times baby,

I'll always be your friend.

And if only you could've seen,

The wounds I'd try to mend,

You wouldn't have set me free,

You wouldn't have left me to defend.

And I pray that we'll never,

Again have to go through this strife.

And that you will never again sever,

My heart with your cruel knife.

And even though we're back together,

And I once again feel alive,
These wounds will last forever,
And teach me to survive.

So... yea. Julian and I got back together. I'm no longer a mess. :) So that's a good thing. I think I'm going to try to post some of my new poetry on here from now on...

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Wow...

So it's been awhile.

Julian and I got back together.

And I didn't completley disappear off the Blogger website.

I just didn't post for awhile.

Anyways,

I've been typing messages kinda wierd recently.

Like, really wierd.

...

I took the ASFAB test.

Got an 82 on it.

The recruiter said it was really good.

And tried to get me to join the army.

Not for me.

...

I'm going to try to post some more.

And read my story again.

Life After I mean.

I don't even know where I am on it anymore.

I'm thinking about redoing the layout on it.

I don't know.

...

I've the best grades since I was in the 8th grade.

Almost all As.

Thats really good for me.

...

So I'll message later.

Maybe in a couple of minutes.

I think I'm sick

I thought it was true bliss
I thought you were the one
So imagine my suprise
When you told me we were done.
Everything was fine
Moving right along
We were close to a year
Too bad I was wrong.
So now I sit here
Knuckles bleeding, heart shattered
Too bad you don' have the balls
To tell me what was the matter.
I hope your happy
With the mess you've made
Cause I'm broken
And hold the worlds weight.


I hope your crying
Slowly rotting from the inside out.
Your heart is torn.
And is on the floor beating in front of you.
I hope you see your mistake
And break a knuckle against a wall
I hope you cant sleep tonight
And somebody steals me and makes me theirs
And your left alone.

Like how I am now

Can you tell me what I did?
I swear I won't cry
I dont care if it was on a text.
Just tell me why.
Boy, I thought you had some balls
But I guess I was blind.
Was it just a spontanious thing?
Or did I miss the signs?

The evidence right in front of me.
Plain as sight
You left me for her
Isn't that right?
Im not only dead,
Im not only numb,
I'm also feeling
A little bit like scum
So long we were togeter
Close to our anniversary too
How could you?

So for all of those of you who don't know... Julian (boyfriend of 10 months) dumped me Wednesday...