HELLo.

Okay, so I have had the best Christmas vacation ever. Julian gave me a nice present and I got to hang out with him on Christmas. I got that job at the grocery store awhile back... did I forget to mention that? I started working on Life After again, but only with rewriting the chapters...again. I think I should edit a chapter, then write a new one, but the problem is that I have no idea what I have written or how much or where I am. Plus the whole plot can change between the editing and such so whatever.

I know your worth it...

I need a hug. Just today... it sucks. Big time. Everything feels so confusing right now, I mean I want to see, but I don't want to see them. I have such a good thing going right now, and I don't want to screw it up, but still I can't help but wonder what is/could be...

"What use is it to you, what is on my mind?"

Day 4

Jeez... mom and I totally got into it last night. I think it's cause of the crap that's been going on at school and all, but still. I hated it, I mean, it was the absolute WORST fight we have had in a looong time. As it turns out, we have some problems with me taking the college classes. The books are totally unaffordable, or thats what it feels like at least, and I've been really busy since school started. Monday I went to spirit night, Tuesday I went to try to get a job and picked up Julian to come over, Wednesday I went to a dentist appointment and then to church. (I have 6 cavities, and oddly, I feel proud of myself.) But I really hate how school and jobs put so much stress on the home life, it's like everything has become so hard and it's not so easy to get along with people at the house.

Did I mention that tomorrow is the first football game? I'm super stoked about that, but I'm sure my ex will be there again, and I'll have to treat him like crap or Jules will get mad, and me and Jules will fight, like normal. I really hate the way that I treat him, but I can't help it.